I guess to save me from going into the detail of how I was pathetic and needy over the last month I am posting this new song by Christina Aguilera & Blake Sheldon. I thought this song pretty much sums up my current sentiments. Just goes to show that everyone goes through this? I am taking a dating hiatus. Time for personal recuperation!
Wednesday, 10 April 2013
Sunday, 17 March 2013
Wheel of Fortune
When you think of the Wheel of Fortune you think of a flat circle being spun around with dollar signs and of course Vanna White & Pax Ajax (or however you spell their names). The object I am referring to however is one that stands upright with no dollar signs but rather signifies fortune & misfortune as the wheel moves cyclically upwards then downwards.
I guess you can say this was coming and I ran straight into it, rather I ignorantly walked towards it. Maybe it just happened too fast at the wrong situation? I don't know. I have been known to be horribly impulsive and too meticulously over analytic but I expect a lot from someone that I potentially will date. I think I need a hiatus. Every relationship around me seems to be decaying.
I guess you can say this was coming and I ran straight into it, rather I ignorantly walked towards it. Maybe it just happened too fast at the wrong situation? I don't know. I have been known to be horribly impulsive and too meticulously over analytic but I expect a lot from someone that I potentially will date. I think I need a hiatus. Every relationship around me seems to be decaying.
Saturday, 2 March 2013
Men really are from another planet
I feel like I kicked a dying horse last night. Last night I impulsively expressed my concern for you and it ended up being a massive explosion. I expressed how worthless you made me feel and you said I created that delusional understanding on my own. You then said you never rejected me and that I also perceived that situation on my own as I wanted to see it. I laughed, the entire thing was so comical. There is no way we can see eye to eye it seems - although I am empathizing with you for your situation. I apologized this morning for saying a ton of hurtful things, something I don't usually do and all you did was justify what you had said then proceeded to saying you were okay with being friends.
Am I the only one who is confused by this?
Am I the only one who is confused by this?
Friday, 1 March 2013
Girls & Guys
From what I've heard and have experienced, regular Joes perceive relationships or dating as a thing of the moment. They ask us to stop thinking about the future or tomorrow and live in the current -- to focus on behaviors, situations and expectations 'now'. This would be great if life wasn't a cycle and if the word 'tomorrow' didn't exist. Maybe girls are smarter than the regular Joe who fails to see the importance of laying the foundation for tomorrow now.
While each situation may seem unique, the advice for girls experiencing difficulty in a relationship is to look at what they have now and stop thinking about later - to lower their expectations. It encourages a sense of complacency or contentment in the current situation with the assumption that there is time before the 'future'. But what if you end up falling madly in love with this guy who exhibits no willingness to change and become what you view as important? I know this seems vague and over generalized but I was reading an article written by a guy (link at article can be found below) and while I can relate to how he approaches the concept of the 'future' I'm not sure I agree entirely with the message he is trying to convey.
What do you think?
ARTICLE: http://www.anewmode.com/
While each situation may seem unique, the advice for girls experiencing difficulty in a relationship is to look at what they have now and stop thinking about later - to lower their expectations. It encourages a sense of complacency or contentment in the current situation with the assumption that there is time before the 'future'. But what if you end up falling madly in love with this guy who exhibits no willingness to change and become what you view as important? I know this seems vague and over generalized but I was reading an article written by a guy (link at article can be found below) and while I can relate to how he approaches the concept of the 'future' I'm not sure I agree entirely with the message he is trying to convey.
What do you think?
ARTICLE: http://www.anewmode.com/
Monday, 25 February 2013
My weekend rampage
It started with a work party at The Pint.
Early on in the week I told myself I was on self-preservation mode. I was trying to embrace being single and having so much freedom to anything with my time (for me this meant signing up to volunteer as a chair in committee for a well known charity organization and going to interviews to scout for a second job). And then the weekend hit and somehow I let loose a bit too much and then sunday hit. By sunday night I was wondering what had happened and by monday I felt like I didn't know what I want in my life anymore.
I feel so de-centralized, so not myself. And I still get emotional thinking about him. I hate being like this!
Early on in the week I told myself I was on self-preservation mode. I was trying to embrace being single and having so much freedom to anything with my time (for me this meant signing up to volunteer as a chair in committee for a well known charity organization and going to interviews to scout for a second job). And then the weekend hit and somehow I let loose a bit too much and then sunday hit. By sunday night I was wondering what had happened and by monday I felt like I didn't know what I want in my life anymore.
I feel so de-centralized, so not myself. And I still get emotional thinking about him. I hate being like this!
Tuesday, 19 February 2013
I am still alive
I realize I've been M.I.A. for a while now. I've been trying to re-live my life and pretty much celebrate surviving Singles Awareness Day (definitely celebrated it if you know what I mean ;)). I know there was a tiny little part of me that hoped he would contact me last weekend but, don't you worry, reality has slapped me in the face.
It is such a beautiful day today, life is great and all those wonderful quotes about people embracing life etc. The sun is shining and the reality of my Seasonal Affective Disorder has come to light. If I weren't sitting at work looking out the window into the sun right now I would probably be depressed.
This post is all over the place. I guess I just wanted to let you 1800 crazy people who view my blog (thank you) know that I am still alive and very much kicking! There will soon be more exciting posts ie. guest bloggers, personal interviews and live event feeds!
Keep posted xo
It is such a beautiful day today, life is great and all those wonderful quotes about people embracing life etc. The sun is shining and the reality of my Seasonal Affective Disorder has come to light. If I weren't sitting at work looking out the window into the sun right now I would probably be depressed.
This post is all over the place. I guess I just wanted to let you 1800 crazy people who view my blog (thank you) know that I am still alive and very much kicking! There will soon be more exciting posts ie. guest bloggers, personal interviews and live event feeds!
Keep posted xo
Thursday, 14 February 2013
Fete d'amour
It is on this very day that I wish I invested in flower, chocolate and card making companies OR ran a floral, chocolate or card shop just so I can witness frenzy of people extravagantly purchasing material goods in order to portray their love for someone.
Don't get me wrong, I love any holiday that reminds us to stop and share love or give love (or make love ;)) but I think all of these can be done with out dropping large amounts of dollar bills. Does your significant other need to have a holiday to remind him/her to show you their love? Should this not be an ordinarily freely given affection?
This year, as with every year for the umptieth years I've lived, I am spending 'V' Day as a single & content jane. I have been struggling lately and last night I almost had an anxiety attack trying to prepare for the mix of emotions that I might feel since I've been an emotional psycho lately. Today, however, I strangely feel fine? I mean aside from the jerks showing off their flowers, cakes and whatever gifts they received on my facebook newsfeed, I feel pretty great about myself today - it might also be the medication I'm taking for my cold.
Last year for Valentine's Day my mom had a heart attack so today she considers it her second birthday. Instead of focusing on the lack of a significant other in my life I can focus on everyone else that exists, who have always been there for me no matter what. Last night I asked my mom what she has gained from her year of life and she said that she now lives on a daily basis. Something I am still learning to do.
Don't get me wrong, I love any holiday that reminds us to stop and share love or give love (or make love ;)) but I think all of these can be done with out dropping large amounts of dollar bills. Does your significant other need to have a holiday to remind him/her to show you their love? Should this not be an ordinarily freely given affection?
This year, as with every year for the umptieth years I've lived, I am spending 'V' Day as a single & content jane. I have been struggling lately and last night I almost had an anxiety attack trying to prepare for the mix of emotions that I might feel since I've been an emotional psycho lately. Today, however, I strangely feel fine? I mean aside from the jerks showing off their flowers, cakes and whatever gifts they received on my facebook newsfeed, I feel pretty great about myself today - it might also be the medication I'm taking for my cold.
Last year for Valentine's Day my mom had a heart attack so today she considers it her second birthday. Instead of focusing on the lack of a significant other in my life I can focus on everyone else that exists, who have always been there for me no matter what. Last night I asked my mom what she has gained from her year of life and she said that she now lives on a daily basis. Something I am still learning to do.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)